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Stories October 9, 2008 I just made a grilled cheese sandwich for Cooper. I cut it up in pieces and put it on his plate. Then it hit me... I forgot the cheese! Hello? Yesterday was Brady and Cooper's 1 year well-check. Everything checked out great for their height and weight. They both weighed in at 23 pounds. Cooper is a little taller putting him in the 94th percentile and Brady in the 75th percentile. Dr. A asked if Cooper had any runny nose or fever issues. I said, "No. Why do you ask?" Dr. A said his left ear was really red and his right ear had a full out ear infection. I was shocked. The only thing I had noticed differently was that Cooper has been clawing at his left ear to the extent of breaking the skin. He has all these little scabs on his ear from scratching. Poor Baby couldn't tell Mommy he was sick. We started antibiotics and a decongestant. I had a fever yesterday. I just felt kind of icky. I was in bed last night by 9pm. I have no fever today but still don't feel well. I also kept Jackson out of school for coughing and gunky nose. Maybe we'll all be feeling better by the weekend. Welcome to cooler weather!
October 7, 2008 I had a prolific moment with Jackson today: LIFE IS LIKE A PUZZLE This afternoon the kids were working on some puzzles. Jackson has never been very interested in puzzles. However, my Aunt Cathy, bought him this really cool pirate puzzle. I was cleaning up the kitchen when I heard him say, "I can't!" I walked over and started helping him with the pieces. I was telling him "You can, Jackson! You just have to keep trying." I sat holding my tounge. What I really wanted to say is, "It goes here!!!!" Instead, I gave him encouragment when we was really frustrated. I watched him try to force those pieces into the most akward spots. Eventually, he got it. He was so proud of himself. It occured to me while I watched him struggle that this is how life is. I'm going to sit back and watch him make mistakes all the while wanting to say, "NO... you're doing things the hard way!" My prayer: "Dear Jesus, help Brad and I to teach our children your ways. Help us to give them a firm foundation in you so that when tough times and temptations come their way they are prepared for battle."
October 5, 2008 Happy 1st Birthday Brady and Cooper! Their official birthday was yesterday. I held it together without any tears. They are climbing stairs, standing short periods of time without assistance, waving bye bye, saying MaMa, DaDa and Bye Bye. Brady thinks everything is funny. If you look at him he'll just fold over laughing. It's so precious. He will be our little comedian! Cooper is a lover and very sensitive. If I say "No" to him he will cry the most pitiful heartbroken cry you've ever heard. It just melts my heart. He minds very well. He doesn't want to dissapoint anyone. He'll be the peacemaker! I love you, Babies. Our weekend was pretty low key. Papa surprised us and came over for a visit on Friday. Uncle Aaron, Memaw and Papa were all here for dinner. I made meatloaf at Uncle Aaron's request and a red velvet cake at Papa's request. Saturday morning Papa, Jackson, Gabrielle, Connor and myself headed to a local community yard sale. I scored some beautiful black and white toile valances. I'm hoping to use them in my room. If not, I'm sure I can ebay them for the price I paid... only $15 bucks!!! Memaw was looking for big wheels for the kids that they could keep at her house. I found a Dora big wheel for $4. Can't beat a good deal. Papa found a t.v. We were happy with our purchases. Brad stayed home with the babies and his Mom. After our shopping, I took Jackson to a birthday party. It's the same party I took him to last weekend that didn't exsist! He had soooo much fun. Nathan is his favorite person at Pre-K. They hugged so big when they saw each other. It was sweet to see him have this friendship with someone I didn't help nurture. He's so grown up. Nathan's Mom and I decided we HAD to get them together for a couple play dates. After church yesterday, GG called and said she had a mess of green beans and some tomoatoes from my Aunt Helen's garden in North Carolina. GG had been visiting over the weekend. GG tantilized us with oven fried chicken, mashed potatoes, fresh green beans, sliced tomoates, cole slaw, creamed corn, cornbread and cantelope. It was phenominal! We ended the night with a little Wii action. Larry, Brad and I had our own band. I, of course, was the lead singer! (Indy girls, does that surprise you?) Brad jammed out on the drums and Larry was the cool guitar player. We had so much fun. We kept saying, "One more song then we have to go." I think we did that 1,000,000 times before we actually made ourselves stop. It was a blast. Brad seriously wants to take drum lessons. He's always wanted to play. I encouraged him to try it. It would be great fun for him! I left with a headache from singing so much. We made it home by 10pm. Brad decided that was the perfect time to rearrange the keeping room furniture. Whatever??? But we did. It looks better, I'm glad we did it. Things motivate him at the oddest time. I just go with it!
October 2, 2008 FALL, How I love you so! Isn't this just the best time of year? It's by far my favorite season. When the windows are up in the house and cool air is swirling around it makes me feel like a different person. My attitude is so much better. Thank you, Jesus for beautiful creation. It's pretty much a normal day at the Harris'. When I went to bed last night I thought to myself, "I am so glad tomorrow is Friday and we don't have to rush and get JR ready for school." Well, I woke up with that same gladness UNTIL I realized at 8am that today is Thursday. Needless to say I had to kick it into overdrive and get my ducks in a row. I only had 2 kids awake, noone was dressed, no lunch made, no coffee made (ick) and no plan. You see, I have to have a plan of action when getting all these little ones and myself out the door. I dressed Jackson in mock speed... woke up Brady and encouraged him to suck down a bottle in record time... threw the most pitiful lunch together... threw everyone in the car still wearing pj's (including myself)... then tossed a cold pop tart and a cup of milk to the older kids to eat on the way to school. We made it with 4 minutes to spare! After our mad rush, we came home and had a real breakfast with eggs and biscuits. When everyone had their fill I gave the little guys a bath then laid them down for a morning nap. Gabrielle and Connor had their bath, too. It's 11:15am and I'd say we've been very productive. I got my hair cut/hi lighted last night. Nancy is my hair dresser. She was so nice and I had a great time chatting with her. She was amazed at our family and of course I had to pull up the website to show off a little. I think we'll have a wonderful relationship. Tonight is GNO!!! Kim and I are going to head out this evening. Don is bringing his 3 kids over to hang out with Brad while we are out on the town. 8 kids and 2 men... anyone else concerned?
October 1, 2008 Yesterday we droped Jackson off at school and headed to the mall. Papa bought the babies new shoes for their birthday so we were headed to Stride Rite. Before we could get to the mall I had to find gas. Now, for those of you who are not living in the South East you have no idea what it means to find gas. There is NONE! Out of 10 gas stations in the area you are very fortunate to find 1 that is pumping. We are expected to have this problem until Mid-October. It's very frustrating. I'm trying to keep my tank topped off whenever I can find fuel. Once you do find gas, you have to wait in line for at least 20 minutes to pump. Cars are lined up in the road with employees and bystanders directing the flow of traffic. It's unreal. Needless to say, we are trying to stay put and do as little running around as possible. With that said, I was about to go stir crazy yesterday we we did head to the mall. I found the boys some Robeez (black with soccer balls) and got the others some new pj's. We made a morning of it and headed back to get Jackson from school. Other than that, the day was pretty ho-hum. It is a beautiful 60 degrees outside with a very gentle breeze. I fixed eggs and biscuits for the children this morning. We put a table and chairs on the outdoor living area and have been having breakfast outside each morning. The kids love it and I do, too. The high chairs stay out there now. It's much easier to sweep the crumbs onto the grass than off the hardwoods. There are no stairs to worry about either. The only way on and off the deck is through the master bedroom or the kitchen. Tonight I'm going to get my haircut and hi lights put in. Oh I know, I know... you thought all those blonde streaks were natural, I know. LOL I'm trying a new place in Jasper, GA about 20 minutes from here. I met this really sweet lady in the produce aisle at Publix a couple weeks ago. We talked forever over the tomatoes! Turns out she is a hair stylist. I have a feeling she'll work out really well. I'm off to get the house cleaned up and some laundry moving. The babies are napping and Gabrielle and Connor are playing. They play so well together when Jackson isn't here. They are very quiet! Hmmmmm, I wonder who Jackson gets his hyperactivity from?
September 29, 2008 What a weekend! Sunday afternoon was the big first birthday party. The boys had so much fun. It was just the right size with some of our favorite people. They loved their cakes and really smashed into them the way I'd hoped. I cried a few tears but held it together for the most part. It's like all of a sudden they are not little newborns anymore. They are toddlers. I'm emotional about my babies growing up and so my heads been spinning with ideas and thoughts. Our friends we hung out with on Saturday, Don and Kim, have adopted a newborn baby. Brad and I BOTH have been holding him and kissing all over him like crazy. I told Brad "Maybe one day when Brady and Cooper are off at elementary school we could adopt a baby! Wouldn't it be nice to know you were having only ONE! It would be so easy." He looked at me and said, "With our luck we would pick a birth mother and she'd have TWINS!" LOL Don't worry everyone... it was just a passing thought!
September 27, 2008 There are only so many spaces in ones brain to remember things. I am almost sure that my spaces are occupied with children and they jump from one section to the other so that I am an utter mess and can think of nothing but THEM. I'm getting so forgetful that Brad keeps asking me if I should see someone. Today was a doozy. Brad took all the kids to his parents for the day so I could get some housework done. If I can't have my cleaning lady anymore then I must have a kid free zone to work in. So he took the kids and Jackson stayed with me. Papa is in town visiting and the plan was as follows: Papa and I clean up the house to prepare for Brady and Cooper's party tomorrow. Stop cleaning at 12noon so I could shower and take Jackson to a friends birthday party he's been dying to go to. It's all he's talked about all week. He's carried the little gift bag all day asking "now mommy?" Before we left for the party I tried to call the parents for directions. Nobody answered and I figured they were busy decorating. We set out to find the party. We arrive promptly at 1pm to find noone there. I ask Papa, "Are you sure this is the right address?" He says yes. "Are you sure it's the right time." He says yes. "I don't get it, where are all the people." Jackson says, "Mommy, I can't take it anymore let's just go in... I'm dying." Papa says, "Dacia.....(long pause) The date for the party says Oct 4th" We laughed so hard we couldn't breathe. Then I remembered that this wasn't funny to Jackson. He had planned his entire week around this party. He was crushed! How do I explain to a 4 year old that his Mommy is scatter brained? I promised him I would do something special for him to make up for it. After lots of thought I decided the something special could be the birthday gift we had bought for his friend. It was a Iron Man mask and costume. Jackson was happy and I was starving. Papa suggested lunch at Williamson Bros BBQ. We arrive at the resturant around 1:00pm. Around 1:45pm I get a phone call on my cell I don't recognize therefore I ignore. They left a message so I licked my fingers free of grease and BBQ sauce to check the message. It's the bakery calling to say they hope I still want the cakes I was supposed to pick up at 10am that morning. They close at 2 but will stick around until 2:15 if I still need them. OH MY WORD... I forgot the cakes. We leave Williamson Bros and race to the bakery. I go into the store apologizing for my forgetfullness when I realize I don't have a penny nor credit card to my name. I was supposed to cash a check at the bank and had FORGOTTEN. Papa to the rescue... he paid for the cakes. Next up was the grocery store. We got all our needs and then I remember AGAIN that I had no means of paying for my items. Add to the list... pay Papa back for cakes AND groceries. We left the grocery and I pulled into Chick Fil A too embarrased to admit it but I'd forgotten the tea. Mental Note: Pay Papa for Cake, Groceries and Tea. So $150 later I had done all I could remember to do. At 5pm we were heading to our neighbors house for a Georgia Game party. Another couple who lives next door were also there. That's 6 adults and 10 children. We got to the house and Brad said, "Are you sure this is it?" I replied, "Well I think it is?" Brad says, " Dacia, if you've forgotten and send me to the door holding 2 babies and a tub of cheese dip to some strangers door I will commit you to a place who can help deal with these types of things!" Like any brave wife would do... I send him to the door ALONE to scope things out. Turns out it was the right house and we were there the right day. Thanks Jesus, I got one thing right in the last 24 hours. We made great friends with Don, Kim and their 3 kids as well as Allen, Amy and their 2 children. All the kids are around the same age. They played so well and the babies had a great time. One of the girls is 7 and she loved the babies. They loved her, too. We cooked out burgers, hotdogs and chicken. It was a great night and we all had a blast. The only bad part was watching UGA lose! Once we got home Brad made me fish out my daily organizer and start writing. I am going to carry it on me at all times. I just hope I remember to look at it! LOL
September 25, 2008 We are back from our one night excursion to Memaw and Grandpa's. We had a good time and it was nice to be away for a night. The kids, Memaw and I went to Grandpa's office at the North American Misison Board yesterday. He wanted to "show off" a little bit. He paraded the children through the building with a very large smile. The kids were very well behaved. After our introduction to 1,000,000 people we had lunch in the cafeteria. We managed to make it through with only one spilled drink! However, we did leave a sea of crackers on the floor! Thanks everyone at NAMB for being so sweet. It was great meeting all of you! We had dinner at Memaw's and Grandpa's last night. Brad met us there after work. I made BBQ chicken, crockpot mac-n-cheese, vegetable casserole, fried okra, cole slaw (compliments of Chick-fil-A), sliced tomatoes, cantelope and cresent rolls. Memaw had already prepared a Chocolate Chocolate Chip Cake and Apple Pie. It was all delicious. Brady and Cooper ate their weight in dinner. They loved it. It's so sweet to me that they are eating table food. They are getting bigger with every single bite! Everyone had sat down at the table and Memaw said, "We'll have rolls in just a minute." After we prayed Sissy said, "Helloooooo, I don't have a hot roll!" I was worn out by the time dinner was over. We were all tired but I had to go to Party City to pick up some supplies for the big birthday party this weekend. We don't have one in Canton. I drug myself there and stood in the middle of the "First Birthday" aisle. I almost had to leave. I couldn't stand the thought of my last babies turning one. I honestly thought Brad was going to have to come walk me though the process of picking out the decorations. I braved through it with only one or two tears and lots of "Get it together woman, you're in a public place!" type thoughts. There was one decoration in particular that had me so confused. It was a Japanese Lantern sort of thing. There were two pictures on the front... one circle lantern and one cylinder lantern. The writing on the back had me so puzzled it read "9 in ball". I read that over and over and over and over and over. I carried it all through the store thinking "Wow, I can't believe you get 9 of these lantern balls for $2.99" I took it to the register still thinking something wasn't right about the price. I asked the little teenager girl, "Does this really mean there are 9 balls in the package?" She looked at me like "Are you really that stupid?" and said, "Mam, I think that means it's a 9 INCH BALL." I held my composure until I walked out the store with my face burning like fire from embarassment. When I got to car I laughed until I couldn't stand it anymore. My next thought was... it's a good thing these babies are the last because I'm losing brain cells with each one! We took Jackson to school this morning like normal. Once we get in the carpool lane he's allowed to unbuckle and say his good bye's. This morning he was giving all his hugs and kisses when he gave Sissy and Connor the following orders. "Now listen to me Sissy and Connor. You be nice today and if you are not Mommy will give me a message and I'll have to talk to you about it when I get home. Okay?" With that said, he saved the last hug and kiss for me because, "Children go first Mommy, then adults." I waved goodbye thinking he's the best big brother EVER! My babies are ALL growing up too fast.
September 23, 2008 After I took Jackson to school today I thought to myself... I want to go see Memaw. So I packed up our bags, picked Jackson up from school and headed to Memaw's house. Brad is hunting tonight and Grandpa won't be home until late. The kids love coming over and I love the company. I brought their big wheels and they've peddled their little legs off since we got here. Brad will meet us over here tomorrow night after work along with Uncle Ernie for dinner. It's really nice having family so close. Brady and Cooper's first birthday party is on Sunday. We went today to pick up a few party supplies. I ordered their cakes yesterday. I can't wait to see them dig in! Time is passing so quickly. I told Brad yesterday as tired as we are we need to embrace every second. They are getting more independent with each passing moment. I don't want to look back and think all I did was complain about how tired I was all the time. I want to remember leaving the dishes and the mess to go do something spontaneous. I want the kids to grow up remembering that life as a child was enjoyable. I want them to see that we made effort to enjoy each other. I want us to share stories full of laughter. It's so hard to appreciate where I am sometimes. I'm always looking for what's to come. Lord, help me be satisfied and love my life as it is now!
September 22, 2008 The whirlwind has subsided and we're back to normal (if there is such a thing). I cried, begged and pleaded to get Lisa to stay but she HAD to go home. Something about work and her husband... I don't know. LOL We had a wonderful time. We stayed busy the entire week doing things we enjoyed and wanted to do. We went to Stone Mountain for a pic nic. We also rode the sky lift to the top. Lisa and I could have stayed for hours but the kids were only thrilled for about 5 seconds and ready to go home. We also went to the Atlanta Aquarium. It was just Lisa, Dorian, Jackson and myself. A little Momma and Big Boy time. After the aquarium we let them play at Olympic Centennial Park. Then we headed to The Varsity for Chili Slaw Dogs. Lisa said they tasted as good as they looked on my website. We also took the kids to the pool one day and another day we just hung out at the house letting them run wild outside. We decided she's on a every 3 month plan. I hope to see her again in January. I'm trying this week to prepare for Brady and Cooper's First Birthday Party. We are having a very very small party with just family. Memaw, Grandpa, GG, Larry, Uncle Aaron, Aunt Susan, Grant, Ryan and of course the 7 of us in my family. This is our first year able to have a family party at home so we're taking advantage of it! One year old? Boo-Whoo...
September 17, 2008 Jackson and Dorian are having a blast. All the kids are loving having Dorian here to play with. It's like they have not even been apart. Jackson and Dorian have played Power Rangers for every waking second. If it's not Power Rangers it's Kung Fu Panda. Obviously, there is a love for the arts here. They have been sleeping in the twin beds in Jackson's room. Connor has been sleeping with Sissy and Lisa has the bed to herself in the basement. They all look so sweet when they are asleep. Sissy and Connor talk to each other for a long time before they drift off. It's precious to hear their little voices in there whispering. Sissy is usually mothering him and making sure his needs are taken care of. "Connor, you may not get out of bed," she'll say. Connor responds like a good little soldier and says, "Sissy, I you huntin' buddy." That's the most prestigous honor in this house... to be deemed hunting buddies is the ultimate. 'Cause you don't hunt with just anybody! Speaking of hunting, Brad is on a Black Bear kick. North Georgia, where we live, is covered in them. A sweet patient of his is letting Brad hunt on some land he owns. Brad is like a kid in a candy store at the thought of a bear hunt. Jackson knows that this is different from deer hunting and more dangerous. He keeps saying to us, "I will be so sad if a bear kills you because I won't have a Daddy anymore." It breaks my heart to think he is worried about Brad. He's at the age where he understands mortality just enough to scare himself to death. He and Sissy are my worrisome duo! Tonight Lisa and I had a little GNO. Brad got home from work early. She and I were out the door at 4pm. It was terrific. We gave a high five and jumped in the truck like a fire was after us. We headed to Michael's first. Ya'll know my friend is very crafty. I just kind of looked around and thought things were really neat ideas but all in all it just looked like a lot of time consuming trouble to me. I'm not one to follow through on projects (or diets for those of you who are wondering) crafts would just put me in a big clutter. After that we went to Red Lobster for dinner. We laughed our heads off and had some great girl talk. Something every woman needs. We ended the night with a movie, "The Family that Preys." It's a Tyler Perry movie. We really enjoyed it. Publix was our last stop for some pic-nic supplies. Tomorrow is Stone Mountain day. We are going to take the babies to my Mom's for the day while we ride the train and do some other fun activities. We have a pic-nic lunch planned and the kids are excited. Should be a fun day. The only bad part of our visit is that it's coming to a close soon. I can't enjoy the time she's here for fearing the day she leaves.
September 16, 2008 Today is a day I've been waiting unpatiently to arrive ever since I left Indy. My great and wonderful friend, Lisa and her son Dorian, have come to visit for the week!!!! Thank you, Jesus. They drove last night, stopped for a room, then came on the rest of the way this morning. Riding with them was Betty Coombs. She is a memeber and friend of our church in Indy. She has a daughter here in town and hitched a ride to see her new grandbaby. Jackson and Dorian were so very happy to see each other. They have played very well together. Lisa is so tired she and I have not really had a chance to catch up. Our day is tomorrow. My birthday gift from Brad is a GNO with Lisa, his treat, while he watches all 6 children!!! We are really excited and YES Brad is very capable of the task. Thanks, Honey!
September 15, 2008 Happy Birthday to ME! Today is my 33rd birthday. The really pathetic part is I had to ask Brad how old I was going to be. I never understood how people could forget their age but honestly, I just don't care. Getting older has not ever bothered me. I'm at a great place in my life with my family and feel very blessed to be the ripe young age of 33! Brad planned a birthday party for me yesterday. He invited Susan and Dennis along with their 2 boys, Grant and Ryan. Dennis' Mom, Mary was in town and came, too. Jack and Kate came on Saturday night and spent the night with us and left Sunday evening after the party. Brett and Nicole came with their twin daughters, Kennedy and Blakley. Uncle Aaron and Memaw were also in attendance. We had a great time grilling out hamburgers and hotdogs. Brad topped the whole thing off with a Bruester's Ice Cream Cake! It was very laid back and so much fun. Thank you, Brad!
A little YouTube of our Braves night. http://www.youtube.com/v/YHuYqEb9zDQ
September 12, 2008 Thursday nights used to be so exciting for me when we lived in Indiana. Now that we've moved they just seem like another ordinary day... except sadder! Thursday nights used to mean bible study, friends, good discussion, food and lots of laughs. Now, Thursday nights mean food. I MADE myself get out last night. I went to a movie and was the only person there. Normally, I could care less but tonight it made me want to cry. I know... it just takes time.
September 11, 2008 It's so very hard to write that date knowing how my heart and the heart of fellow Americans felt on that beautiful morning 7 years ago. It's a day we'll never forget and always remember where we were on 9/11. I was at work, Ashmore Concrete, listening to Good Morning America on a FM station. When I heard the news about an apparent plane crash into the World Trade Center. At that moment we thought it was a freak accident. I ran to the television in the office and turned on ABC. What happened over the next several hours was horror. I couldn't beleive my eyes when I saw those buildings turn to rubble before my very eyes. My heart broke and I was scared. Suddenly I wanted everyone I loved to be right in the same room with me. I wouldn't even start to try and explain why God allows things like that to happen. It's bigger than me and I'll never understand. But 9/11 was not a surprise to God. He didn't look down on earth and say, "Oh no, how did that happen?" God is soverign in all things. That's where FAITH comes to play. Salvation through Jesus Christ is more than beleiving. It's repentance, acceptance, faith and following. Repent of your sins and turn away from them. Accept that Jesus Christ is your Savior. Have faith that he is who he says he is. And follow Him through discipleship. These are just a few thoughts I have running through my mind today and felt the need to share with you! One last thing since I'm on a soap box. I hope that when you head to the polls this November you will think about one thing. It's not IF it's WHEN terrorist will strike our country again. They want nothing more than to kill Americans. When that horror does occur, what leader would you rather have defend your country via the presidency? On a lighter note. When we came home from school each day Jackson helps me put all his brothers and sister to bed for a nap. When putting his sister down this afternoon he said, "Sissy. You want to give me a kiss?" She said, "Jackson you not suppose to kiss girls!"
September 10, 2008 Last night we scored tickets to the Atlanta Braves game. Brad, Jackson, Gabrielle, Connor and I had a great time. Papa was here and he watched the babies while we cheered on the Braves. We even made it on the big screen at one point. It was really weird to see us on that huge monitor. The kids thought it was awesome. I just thought I looked fat times 1000 on that screen! There are a bunch of pictures I took from the game, so check out the pictures tab. Papa was here for a couple days. Today I took the older kids to the pool for about an hour. I couldn't believe how good of a swimmer Jackson has become over the summer. Gabrielle and Connor just love to sit on the steps and dare themselves to put their heads under. On the way to school this morning Connor called Jackson "Pee-Pee." That's Connor's new favorite word. Jackson looked over at me and said, "Mommy. Will you please email me and say that Connor can't say pee-pee?" Oh law, I think the child is hilarious! He comes up with this kind of stuff all the time. Thanks for all of the encouragment on my Pre-K woes. I have taken everything into consideration and appreciate that I can rely on my friends to get me through all the drama in my life.
Sept 8, 2008 Okay Okay Okay... I finally got a few pictures on the website. I'm still having problems with my old camera card and that's the one that has tons of pics on it. So I took some shots last night and today with a new card just to have something to post. Enjoy!
September 8, 2008 Okay, since the weekend I have gotten some rest and I am feeling not so irritable and cranky anymore. However, I am still not sure about Jackson's Pre-K program. We are praying about it and feel confident God will give us the answers we need to make a wise decision. Our weekend was filled with not much of anything. We just hung around town running errands and hanging out as a family. Sunday we went to visit the same church I had gone to last week, Hopewell Baptist. We stayed after church for a BBQ lunch they were having. We were hoping to meet some people our age but were not very successful. In time, I suppose. I do have plans this Thursday for a Girl's Night Out with a friend I went to middle school with. She and I hooked up on Facebook and I have not seen her since middle school. I'm excited to reconnect AND have a night out!
September 5, 2008 Don't you just hate when you feel like your kids deserve more and your husband sure asked for more than you are? I hate the pressure that I put on myself sometimes. God has called me to be a wife and mother and I want to do that to the best of my ability. However, there are times, like this week, where I feel like I have failed. There is not any one thing that I can say has happened. It's just been a compulation of several things. I know for a fact that Jackson being in pre-k has a lot to do with it. I mean, he's always gone to Mother's Morning Out but it's different now because I don't know anyone at his school. I wonder who he's playing with, what he's being taught, what does the staff think of my son and how is he treated. In Indy, I knew all those things because it was my church family who was taking care of him. They didn't hesitate to tell me everything I wanted to know. I feel like I'm just dropping him off and abandoning him. Now, I know he's having a great time. He loves it. But this whole "girlfriend" silliness that he's into has me all torn up. I also failed to mention that he showed me how he can fold all fingers down except one. I'll leave it up to your imagination which finger was left up. We are by no means a perfect family but I can promise you he does not see or hear foul language because we don't use it... ever. At some point I have to let him into the world and just pray that the values we've instilled in him have stuck. But should it be so soon that I send him to school. I never thought I'd say this BUT should I homeschool my kids? I honestly am sick about this issue. I'm sure that's why I can't sleep and therefore I'm irritable and weepy and therefore I'm short with my kids and hence me feeling like a terrible wife and mom. The only good thing about low points in your life are that they pass. Soon I'll be over all this drama in my little mind and I'll find something exceptional to be giddy about. But right now I want my 4 year old to be 2 again. I don't want my kids to grow up and see what the evil in this world holds for them. Well, I hope I have left you with a warm and fuzzy feeling for the weekend! LOL
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